I've never been afraid of death. Even as a child, I've been able to view the cycle of life in a most objective manner. From the moment of birth, we are dying. Death is simply the price of life. I have felt a certain pity for those who cannot stare death in the face and embrace it.
Tonight I took my daugther on a late evening stroll. She loves the moon. She loves for me to tell her stories about the moon. She loves to tell me stories about the moon. And as I walked hand in hand with her, her little hand squeezed mine and she looked up into my eyes and she smiled her sweetest smile.
I felt my heart tighten just a little and in that very moment I was afraid. I was afraid of death. Afraid I wouldn't get to see her grow into the beautiful woman I know she will become. Afraid I will miss even one of her 'firsts.' Afraid of her finding her way in life alone. Afraid. It is amazing how love transforms us. It changes how we think...how we feel....what we become....it changes the course of our life.
I realized tonight that I must live every moment 'in the moment' and stop worrying about the crap that truly doesn't matter. Life is a collection of moments...a breathe within eternity. I have to teach my daughter the life lessons that are truly important and show her - not just tell her - what love truly is. And if I am successful, the love I have for her will live on in her long after my time on earth has passed.
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